My opinion, and the things that I care about, change frequently. Today, I couldn’t care less about Capitalism but somewhere in the background this is how I react to the system. I think capitalism is not for everyone. Some seem to thrive in it and others find that it mis aligns with who they are. Capitalism can be overwhelming for me. I believe it to be all mind, no heart, and this causes disharmony within. My mind thinks like a capitalist. I’m always coming up with ideas that would make me a fortune so I can fuck off and leave the system and live from the heart again. Is this the retirement state of mind? We work to make enough money so that we can quit and get back to living. I love working and I love to be useful but I hate living according to other rules. Maybe I have to change my thinking and accept the world as it is, for the sake of my own serenity, but something else tells me I’m right. 

I live in a small town on Long Island called Sea Cliff situated on the Long Island Sound. You have to pay money to enter the beach. The town of Sea Cliff believes that the beach belongs to them, which enables them to charge money. They must have reasons and opinions for doing so, but the beach belongs to know one. The beach is not for man to conquer and to claim as its own. If the beach wanted to charge people for entering its shore, it would have been created that way. The beach, as well as all land, is home to everyone. When people take advantage of this truth, I get really fucking mad. The earth is all heart, no mind. It gives, expecting nothing in return. People should honor and reciprocate the Earth's generosity. It creates and reveals itself in such an unconditional, loving way, which should act as a role model.

I’ve had zero desire to write over the past two weeks; face-to-face interactions seemed to be more attractive. I feel more honest and direct and wanted to exercise this atrophied muscle, but not on paper, but in person. It’s been a lot of fun. When I was a kid, I talked massive amounts of shit to everyone, and I had a blast doing it. As I got older, I became more withdrawn, and that part of me set aside. I became more introverted and lost use for most extroverted parts. It’s resurfacing and is one of my favorite things to be. It’s aggressive, revolting, playful, and truthful. Maybe these are all different parts, but they seem to work together.

Writing about healing and spirituality is boring me. I think re-entering the world feels more appealing now. Art is an expression; that’s how I view it. But also, art has always felt like a secondary form of creativity to me. Primarily, living authentically is the greatest art form. What’s more personal: writing what you mean or living it? I guess you can do both. I think I used art to hide. It’s almost like internet trolling. I could be a shit-talking, forest-dwelling, email-blasting hermit, or I can live in society and talk shit to people’s faces. The latter sounds more fun.

This past week, I’ve been looking to buy/finance/lease a car while simultaneously looking for a job over the past four months. I like to get personal; that’s who I am. But in my experience, entering the corporate capitalist world has been nothing of the sort. Company representatives are like chickens to a farmer. I can’t say this is true across the board; I can only speak of my experience as of now. Companies are created to do one thing: make money. In return, money enables us to survive in a capitalist society. Remember, the rest of life has made it this far with ought relying on capitalism, including ourselves. 

I lived on the outskirts of the system for quite a while. I had one foot in, one foot out, and it kind of worked. It was actually a delicate balance, but I hated my job (wedding photography), so I quit and fucked off full time for a year. I’m not attacking people or business; I’m attacking the system once it becomes impersonal. When a business or political party grows too large, the power scale tips over. Apple, for example, has literally changed life here on Earth. I love their products, but I wish they didn’t exist. Apple wants my life. It does a great job at it. It’s not as powerful as drugs, but it’s mentally controlling. There’s no heart in this shit. You can’t find love in it, only mental stimulation. 

When I lived at a mediation retreat for 3 months, I didn’t use my phone. After the retreat, I remember holding my phone in my hand. I felt that I was on the brink of entering a virtual reality. Immediately, I felt its presence with ought it even being turned on. Memory recall. It was like holding drugs in my hand. Upon turning it on, I could sense myself disassociating from reality and entering into a mental trance. Not only did it disgust me, it lost its grip and appeal. Instagram was the worst. It was laughable. I bet my life on it that if anyone gave up their phone for two months, they would have the same experience. This shit is poisonous. The product they built is for reliance, not sanity. Apple could give a shit if you lose your life to its products. This is my opinion, and it’s harsh. I never met Steve Jobs, but I think I would have liked him way more than his product.

Six months later, here I am, back on my phone, hating it. I only knew its nature when I actually gave it up for an amount of time, which allowed my mind to reset back to homeostasis. What I’m trying to say is that we don’t know what we are truly missing until we can leave it all behind.

Since I’ve moved back to NY, I can feel the capitalist whore trying to suck me in. Let’s use transportation as an example. First, you walk into the office and negotiate with the salesperson. Then you buy the lease, then you pay the tax, then the fees, then you pay the registration, then you get the insurance, and now you can drive!

Or... I could just get a horse for free. I’m serious. That’s not allowed, though. My beef with the system is that if you don’t rely on it, you can’t live in it. There’s a name for the people who don’t rely on it: homeless. We are social creatures. We need each other like we need water. If everyone is participating in capitalism, it’s difficult to not be a capitalist ourselves. Capitalism is like living life through a mental examination test. The heart doesn’t belong here. Capitalism has all our friends sucking from its udder, and watching this upsets me. 

Above all else, I like my liberty. Capitalism and liberty don't mix, like two dicks, (it’s a Biggie line-had to include it) yet capitalism tricks us into believing that hard work will lead to freedom. The truth of the matter is that freedom is not reliant on money or a system. True freedom only comes from the ability to control your own mind. Capitalism does not solve this, but it claims it can. It is the grandfather of addiction. Addiction is all about making ourselves feel better by a means of external usage.  

 

Is capitalism driving us towards God? The Buddha (smartest person in the universe) said craving causes suffering. If capitalism is anything like me, God is going to sodomize it from the inside out, like God has torn apart every other kingdom that ever was. When the mind outbalances the heart, the disharmony corrects itself. It is out of our control, it just happens. After war comes peace, no? It can take a long time to transition, but eventually it does.

When we crave and generate aversion, we’re the first to know it. Does capitalism relieve us of craving and aversion, or does it propel it?

People have defined God as many things, but perhaps we can all settle on one simple thing that God does. God supplies. I didn’t stitch my cells together to create myself or alchemize water. If you say that’s not God, that’s evolution, that’s fine. How you define God is your business. All I’m saying is that I, Alex, am not responsible for creating myself. Something beyond me did.

The air, the water, the sun, the earth. These elements create everything here on earth. Because of this, we can eat, drink, build shelter, and do so much more. This force also created a fucking horse!

I don’t know what the answer is, but there is a prophecy about the Eagle and the Condor. In all honesty, I haven’t thought about this prophecy for two years until writing this last sentence. I guess this is the way to close this one up and I believe that prophecies and foretelling the future are possible when you learn about the laws of nature.

According to the ancient Native American prophecy of the Eagle and Condor, a significant turning point occurred in the 1490s, initiating a 500-year era where the dominant Eagle people would wield immense power, nearly pushing the Condor people to the brink of extinction.

However, the prophecy also foretells that in the subsequent 500-year period, commencing in 1990, an extraordinary opportunity would arise. This opportunity holds the potential for the Eagle and the Condor to unite, soaring through the same sky and igniting a profound shift in human consciousness. It is important to note that the prophecy speaks solely of this potential, leaving it in the hands of humanity to awaken and activate this transformative power, thereby facilitating the emergence of a new collective consciousness.

The convergence of the Eagle and Condor represents a harmonious integration of contrasting forces. It signifies the reconciliation between the forces of the mind and the heart, the masculine and the feminine, and the material and the spiritual. Such a union has the potential to birth a higher level of awareness and understanding for humanity as a whole.

Yet, the realization of this prophecy rests upon the actions and choices of individuals and communities. It calls upon us to embrace our shared responsibility to activate the dormant potential and foster an environment that nurtures the birth of a new consciousness. By embracing unity, compassion, and respect for diversity, we can bring forth the transformative power of the Eagle and Condor union, paving the way for a more enlightened and interconnected world.

In essence, the Eagle and Condor prophecy serves as a reminder that we are the architects of our own destiny. It is through our conscious efforts, collaboration, and a deep reverence for the interconnectedness of all beings that we can collectively manifest the profound transformation envisioned by this ancient prophecy.